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Four brothers go to the beach

Here comes a youthful and cute blonde girl. She’s very excited to come to the ocean on holiday. Her hair up in a ponytail, she’s put on her armrests and pulled up the lifebuoy around her waist, already hopping toward the water. As the level rises, she starts to float, flapping her arms and realizing that with all that bulk around her she’s not going to move freely very much. But it feels safe and the water is nice, with some effort she manages to turn around to face the beach once again and cheer her beloved brothers. Her name is Brenda.

Next comes Stevie. A wiry, happy kid wearing some ragged, mismatched clothes. He does look a bit malnourished but at the same time seems quite energetic. He doesn’t wait a second, he pushes down his pants and pulls out his shirt, to remain completely naked. Then he runs stampeding straight into the water! He’s never seen the ocean before, he never learned how to swim either. Just a moment and only bubbles are left. Oh well, he’s already drowned. But no! There he is, resurfacing not far away, sputtering, coughing, going under again. Brenda is watching, looking a bit perplexed, if not concerned. But Stevie keeps coming back up, eventually. He seems to be spending more time under the water than above, probably not by choice. Maybe he enjoys more diving than swimming, but you assume he’s having fun. Now Brenda is splashing some water in his direction, which probably doesn’t help, but doesn’t seem to hurt either.

All the while, impassible as marble stature, stands and watches George, the oldest brother. Eyes shielded by expensive-looking sunglasses, lean and handsome like no other. Projecting a sense of confidence and safety, completely in control of his own circumstances. He’s there watching silently until something must have signaled him everything’s alright. As he gets to the water he doesn’t spare a glance to his brothers anymore. He swims onward, a perfect freestyle as if practiced in an Olympic pool. The water parts to his mighty arm strokes. A marvel to see, a master of his technique. He has no fun. He performs.

But what happened to the fourth brother? He’s always been the quirky one, who went invisible most of the time until too late, when you realize he provoked some complete disaster. George didn’t even have time to turn and see. Richard is running on the water like a fucking Jesus Christ. He said he doesn’t care about swimming. He’s already just one small dot, at the horizon. He said he decided to cross the ocean. Brenda doesn’t even know he exists.

I wrote this when I started reading the book, but decided back then that this was going to be the beginning. So it is.

(probably this whole thing still needs a better clean up… Sorry.)

and the Sons of Men threw back their heads, their mouths pits in their beards, their looks shining and hopeless, eyes that mirrored the flailing that is the final recourse of all blooded things.

I did not enjoy reading this book. The reason is more personal than lending itself to a review of the book and the experience was similar to reading the third, the finale of the first trilogy. With the obvious exception that there is no… resumption waiting afterwards, this time. There is nothing else. A literal apocalypse for the series. There are no other scraps of paper to read with the promise of resolution. I finished reading the book, went to bed, and couldn’t sleep for several hours. I felt like haunted. Now I’m trying to write this already exhausted.

At the halfway point of the book some things were being resolved, but less like resolved than brutally chopped off and left bleeding on the ground (Sorweel). That point was where I started to think. That there wasn’t enough of a book left. There was no space. For anything. I was suspended into a contrast, because I still held onto something, despite the book pushing in another direction… When I started to read the first page of the summary, at the very beginning, I immediately jumped to the appendix. Because like with the third book there’s an expansive glossary. And so, right while reading the very first page, I decided to go check what the glossary had to say about the “Apocalypse.” To find that there’s a long entry, precisely copied as it was from book 3. But. It started with two new words. The whole three pages or so long entry was all identical, save those two words at the beginning. System initiation. Nothing else. This hook held me through the reading of the whole book: there had to be some meaning.

There had to be some meaning, and I was 200 pages from the end. Then I was 150 pages away. Then 100. Not only there wasn’t enough space for anything I cared about, but there wasn’t enough space even for the surface of the plot. And then 20 pages. TEN. And then there was nothing left.

On a personal level, I’d have liked the book better if there was no battle and just more people talking. But this is what Bakker wanted. He wanted a battle, he wanted it to be big and take his time creating a staggering sense of wonder. He wanted scripture, of a present already encoded as a mythical age. He would create the awe and continue to elevate the proportions. Once again challenging Tolkien and surpassing, at all levels. The writing, the spectacle, the profundity, Pure plot matching theme, written into it. It is a deliberate book and, I guess, a deliberate disappointment as well.

I did not enjoy reading because at that halfway point I realized that I could not expect anything anymore. I realized what the rest of the book was going to be about. And so reading became an exercise in frustration and an anxiety of feeling a rush in the wrong direction. I realized, as I already expected, that it was a book that wouldn’t look forward, but backwards. Without adding anything. Without breaching the perimeter already drawn, but being pinched and squeezed. As if the book itself became a trap for the occlusion. A space that could not be escaped. A limit that progressively closed and choked. Until no page was left. Until nothing else could be said.

The book dissolved into plot and theme, as strong or stronger they ever were. It became a voice of the apocalypse. There’s a point where the gravity center imposed a pull, and everything was dragged in. Through this, the book delivered all that it wanted to be. A maelstrom that punctuates the finale to the first part that was The Great Ordeal. But, as the deafening scream of the whirlpool, it took the voice away from everything else. It annihilated everything I wanted to know and read about, to deliver misery heightened, but still re-enacted as it was in ALL the previous books, including the first. Now especially, that I closed the page of the last book, I can say everything starts and ends with the first book. That nothing beyond that was more.

I’m too tired and conflicted to hope of giving all this a neat and organized shape. So it’s now all spoilers domain and unsubtle discussion about practicalities. As I said, almost nothing in the book spoke “to me”, or the layer of philosophy and meaning I care about. I guess I’ll write later about this but some expectations about the “semantic apocalypse” went out of the window right from the start. So the book is not what *I* want. That’s fine. It’s absurdly well written and in no way a decline from the previous, exceptional book. But beside all this, and my conflicted view, I have some plain issues about the nature of the plot, to then move to the implications and everything else…

The ending of it all was something that, I think, I could have guessed without much effort, if I closed the book and started to think. Not the reveal about the Dunyain taking over the Ark, that part blindsided me and couldn’t be guessed. But the intervention of Kelmomas was exactly as it would have been. It worked following the same patterns that came before, in the way Bakker forgets about the kid for so many pages, making it another Chekhov gun, as immense as the Ark. Maithanet was killed by a blind spot. The White-Luck warrior, through the intervention of Kelmomas, was killed by a blind spot. Sorweel was killed by a blind spot (again Kelmomas), leaving all the other gods like pathetic wolves who lost all teeth. The most likely outcome on the table was that Kellhus was going to also be fooled, at the end. And he was. Certainty is always humiliated in these books. No one is master. Only unknown unknowns.

The problem is how. So many times we’ve been told how Dunyain brain parallelizes processes like a multi-threading CPU. How they “partition” their mind so that different parts take care of different aspects. And yet here Kellhus isn’t simply surprised by the apparition of his son, unplanned and unseen. But his demise is due to a LOSS of control. Not just surprise. At first I was even misreading, thought it was Kelmomas who threw a chorae or something like that. But the way it’s written, unless I’m not mistaken, one of the skin spies whose hand was pinned down, supposedly because Kellhus controls all that domain and so “wills” those chorae down, manages to lift the hand enough to grasp the ankle of Kellhus. And for me this isn’t actually very consistent. Because I don’t see it as the natural consequence of surprise. It’s not something “more” (here too), something that wrestles control out. Kellhus is merely surprised by a new element in the picture, but none of this MOTIVATES the loss of control that could them trigger enough freedom for the enemy to launch an attack. I don’t see that surprise holding as a motivation, considering again how Dunyain think, the way their brain works, and how they master circumstances even in the event of something unexpected. I don’t see Kellhus as a possible victim of overconfidence. He could get frozen, but not moved back. It is just one small but crucial thing, that I’m not quite accepting.

But what the hell happened at THE END? This could easily be all about my failure as a reader. I just don’t know. I’ll say what I think I read. Kellhus was an impostor, in the sense that he was possessed. We know as much now. How? When? It’s likely it happened during the final part of book 2, when he got hung on the circumfix. It could be seen as a kind of threshold, but nor really if you think of it like a good/bad thing. The moment Kellhus willfully condemns Serwe is the moment he’s already quite the same his future self. So it feels like this possible possession doesn’t have a before and after, because the character evolved rather uniformly through the story. He slowly became, he didn’t switch at a single moment. But this has nothing to do with my bewilderment about the ending. The problem is that there are a number of sides, and they are all revealed sides …of the same thing. Kellhus was possessed by Ajokli, Cnaiur was possessed by Ajokli, strides onward to finally deliver murder to his enemy… Kellhus, who’s also Ajokli. Only to look up and see nothing because Ajokli that is Kellhus is already dead and the No-God is Kelmomas. What even is the supposed endgame? The “Mutilated” who “usurped” the Ark were just an intermediate step. The question was moved, not answered. They came in, and embraced the purpose of the Ark, the same as Kellhus accused his father would eventually do: embrace the same goal. But… THE ARK IS AJOKLI.

At some point it felt like it was a RPG campaign where the master is also playing all the players. A solitaire. Everyone is Ajokli, beside the rest of humanity who’s caught in a silly game.

Same as I read at the beginning of the book about “system initiation”, at the later point I also went reading about “the Ark”, see if the glossary had anything more to offer. And indeed there was. The entry opens about a debate. Whether the Ark is a spaceship, and so Inchoroi being “aliens”, or… something else. This is a part I didn’t understand. “Ajencis himself” (as kind of worthwhile authority, at this point) doubts and rejects the alien option. But I didn’t understand the explanation. “Since the relative positioning of the stars is identical in star charts inked from different corners of the World, we can be assured that the Incû-Holoinas came from someplace distant, but not far away.” …What? This is a pattern of confusion that repeats for me. Because there’s a level of “meaning” where you write fantasy to “expose” some meaningful concept of real life, but there’s also a level where you make something unreal, real. And so for example while souls are a fraud in the real world, and magic mere illusion, in this fantasy other world these two are both FACTUAL things. So what it is that is internally consistent as the cause of something different, and what is that it is instead hooked back in the real? In this practical case about Ajencis, is he fooled about lack of actual science available, and so his deductions being naive, or does he have a point I’m missing? The premise to that conclusion I copied, is that the stars hang as if from a canopy around the world. It similar to some Scylvendi story, in the first of second book. It’s kind of funny how revelation comes from something utterly wrong, but it’s beside the point there. Sailing the Void (space) versus sailing the Outside (the world beyond the world). What would be the problem of “sailing between the stars”? If I can’t make head of tails of what Ajencis deduces, the second part is something I can’t ignore. One of the fundamental aspects at the basis of the Blind Brain Theory, which is also the basis of the work here, is the concept of “sufficiency” and economy (effective heuristics, in a way). It’s one of the positive enablers. The fact that Bakker brings up that same concept here can only be interpreted from my point of view as something authoritative. He wouldn’t use this type of cue if he wasn’t trying to validate what was being suggested.

Even examining the alternative option, there’s nowhere to go left. It’s a dead end. If the Inchoroi are aliens, then we know the Ark was built by something that came before. Another darkness. Whatever happened on and to this alien world, who or what inhabited it, we have zero clue. There’s no point trying to speculate about something that is completely absent from the pages of the book. It’s a dry perspective. On the other hand the concept of Hell and otherworld has been quite prominent. And without an actual validation of something else, which there is none, the Outside is all that is left:

Given the evil, rapacious nature of the Inchoroi, the construction is typically attributed to Ajokli (fuck him in all its incarnations). Some even think the Incû-Holoinas comprises two of the fabled Four Horns attributed to the trickster God in the Tusk and elsewhere. Indeed, some Near Antique lays refer to the conspicuously golden vessel as the Halved Crown of Hate.

And so the Ark was… Ajokli again.

When the Mutilated take control of what’s left of it, they do not bend it to their own ends. Because their own ends are CONQUERED by the Ark. They end up agreeing with its mission, exactly as Kellhus assumed his father would do. But this again means that the Mutilated represented an unnecessary transition. From and to the same thing. Always the Ark, and always Ajokli.

Kellhus (Ajokli), the Ark (Ajokli), the Mutilated (Ajokli), Cnaiur (Ajokli).

What the Ark is even doing? Either sealing the world from the hell, so that Kellhus-Ajokli can deliver hell directly to this world. Or a contradiction. Or the last option, being quite plain an uninteresting: a group of oligarchs sacrificing everyone else so that they could save themselves. Just good old egoism and power grab.

What the hell is Kelmomas in this context? I did not embrace the way Kellhus was undone, but everything about Kelmomas becomes even more confused. Not in a mystical, suggestive kind of way, but just plain confusion. Kelmomas was… Ajokli?

Malowebi assumed, according to his terror, that the boy belonged to Ajokli… One of the Hundred stood manifest before him! Of course the boy was his!
Except that he wasn’t.

What was he, then? Why he could not be seen? All of this tells me I’m missing something plain, and it’s all my fault. But confusion piles up in a way I lose track even of things that weren’t confusing before. “Being unseen” was the action of the gods on the world. The White-Luck warrior, as a vessel of Yatwer. So this otherwordly essence give them a special quality. The Ark can not be seen, by the gods in this case. Why? Maybe because Ajokli found a way to hide it, his intention separate from other gods, maybe to seize control, and go against the God-of-gods as well? Sorweel was going to undo Kellhus, until Kelmomas intervention. In the same way, it is implied, the other side is also unperceived. I guess all Kellhus sons are included? Moenghus doesn’t count, and can’t read faces. Serwa was fooled by Sorweel. Everyone else never really faced a god, or god-like vessel. But it still makes no sense how these different special qualities are set. Isn’t Kellhus unseen by the gods because he got himself possessed? So how does it get passed over to his kids, who… cannot see each other? Or what? Which doesn’t even make sense since Kellhus just saw Kelmomas. His control “sputters”, but he does see Kelmomas. It’s “seeing” in a different way. There are so many aspects to this wholly practical problem that it’s both a large problem, and one that is not even interesting to solve.

While continuing to weigh on the rest… What’s the deal with both the No-God and God-of-Gods? Kelmomas is not born as a No-God (if so, why?), but there was the weird deal with the double personality with his brother. The way they get “split”, and the way Kelmomas then murdered him to re-appropriate the other half. Kellhus doesn’t say Kelmomas is mad, but that both of them surface and take turns. But where does this whole thing lead? It’s just another quirk of a quirky family? Everything about Kelmomas is a giant question mark. In the end he’s put in the sarcophagus because he’s just of the same blood. It’s a gimmick, there’s nothing else to it. So the No-God is what? Just a concept + a vessel.

WHAT DO YOU SEE?

The most ensorcelling scene from the first book and then onward. From the very beginning, and especially when the “I CANNOT SEE” part was added, it felt to me not like the authoritative voice of a god. But… a loss. A question not born of power, but of absence. It does make sense that it’s all a sublimation of someone entrapped within the sarcophagus. But… Once again there’s nothing more. The first time the scene is on the page tells everything it’s going to be for the rest of the books. Someone got entrapped in there, okay. Why? It’s a gimmick, need a special person to turn it on. At some point, maybe again the glossary, it’s as if this No-God lead armies and made tactical decisions. It always felt like bullshit and it seems confirmed here that the No-God is just a passive device that moves following some rules. But it doesn’t seem to embody any worthwhile “will.” Once again we get to a dead end, a concept that doesn’t resolve into anything.

At the same time, it throws a weird light on the God-of-Gods too. If Kellhus is an impostor, then Ajokli speaking is trying to manipulate the truth to something convenient. It’s evilness deceiving, the darkness turned light. But if then the GoG is not involved, this whole thing doesn’t leave it in a better place. The GoG does absolutely NOTHING. The most passive entity. While being absolved from the accusations, it also falls right into them. Whether a spider waiting to eat or not, he sits waiting. Just the same. Couldn’t be arsed by anything. What’s the deal with Mimara, then? (Her sections being written in present, rather than past tense, is one of many things I could have bet would receive an explanation in this book… Nope. Just a stylistic choice in the end, I guess.) The eye of the god is kind of stupid, and once again quite pointless. At some point the Eye opens and takes a stroll, recognizes already Kellhus a Ciphrang (as long Ajokli fits in that category?), then looking into Mimara’s womb and… is “struck blind.” I assume the living/dead kid separation is used symbolically to divide the before/after the coming of the No-God, since “the Boding.” Other than that, I suppose the eye unable to see is just a poetic concession to the unknown of a new life?

In the end both the Eye and the GoG do nothing and are nothing. It’s a device to expose the illusion. Even then, I understand the choice of making it an evocative scene. The “good ending” is so abrupt that is obviously a fraud. But there’s a physical Kellhus, or illusion of him. They come close to him. And then what? He’s a sarcophagus? But the sarcophagus is also up above, descending from the golden room. The idea of the sarcophagus projecting illusions is something new. Kellhus is dead. The No-God is Kelmomas. Why Kellhus is there, then? What do you see? What am I? It’s evocative. It’s also a powerful and deeply unsettling scene. But it feels more a special effect than motivation. It’s just there.

Those are some of the main aspects about the nature of the plot. I wasn’t persuaded by Kelmomas intervention, nor know anymore what is Kelmomas and why. Dragging along all the other gods like Yatwer, and all the side plot of Sorweel. Ajokli playing on roles on the table, without any plausible motive. Even less being actually meaningful. And there’s another minor quibble, the whole part of Serwa fighting the dragon. The only parts of the writing that felt incoherent for me where Kelmomas intervention, and the dragon fight. The latter feeling like something coming out of Sanderson’s Stormlight. Too fancy super-heroistic, and it seemed as if Serwa forgot she had sorcery replaced by… gymnastics? But the whole thing. The dragon waiting just behind the threshold. This is another part of the plot that went nowhere. In the end Kellhus goes in the Ark from above. Some other people do some minor infiltration here and there. Before opening the book, and then approaching the Ark and seeing it undefended I though all the second half of the book would take place inside the Ark, going deeper. But instead everything happens outside. And I forgot to mention: how the hell Kelmomas got in? We have books worth of proofs of how he’s able to lurk, and slip around unseen. But how does he enter the Ark, and how does he get inside the golden room? That was for me a bit too much of taking for granted. But anyway. The point is that they try to defeat the dragon and get inside for no purpose at all. Because the moment after it’s all done and solved without setting foot inside. It’s like filler, and it even gets mentioned as explicit speculation. Were they delayed so that they wouldn’t join Kellhus? Maybe, but it’s all pointless anyway. Why is Kayutas even in the books? He does nothing. Reappears at the end carrying Serwa’s very likely intended as dead. Both Serwa and Theliopa’s deaths are utterly stupid, beside also being meaningless. Another thing leading nowhere, chopped off without consequence.

(I guess Kayutas is also dead at the end, along with the rest of the host, given he has no sorcery and unless someone gives him a lift?)

All the while, Bakker was carried by his muse. The writing was inspired, and empowered by insight. It was about this, rather than that, but it was fully focused on what it wanted to be. While it was nothing about what I cared about, there were still parts that talked to me. When Kellhus faces the Mutilated, while it changes nothing in the story (as I said, it simply moves questions without answering them), it had a quality of being “meaningful.” At some point it’s written explicitly how this isn’t a simple dialogue taking place. When you put some people in a room, and they talk, rarely they’ll end up changing their ideas in a radical way. It’s the whole recurring theme of “Jnan.” What men do is bargaining, trying to find some advantage and using their ideas as a currency. It’s ironic what happens with Dunyains, because in their pursuit for the Absolute they become SLAVES to the world. They so much depend on circumstances, in ways even more direct. When Dunyains talk, there’s no jnan taking place. It would be just a waste of energy. Words and ideas are data. The truth is the bedrock of what is being said. They all share the same ground, no bargaining is possible. As it is written explicitly, anything can happen. Because there’s no defense from truth. They are all exposed to circumstance, to control NOTHING. It’s all about contemplation and awareness of what comes before. At that point, the whole interplay, is about who already has more pieces of the puzzle. Whose conditioned ground it is. This part spoke to me and rang more true than anything else in the book. The idea that anything could happen between some people just talking.

“I am the greater mystery.”
“I am master here.”

This makes sense if Kellhus is Ajokli, and the Ark is, indeed, his own conditioned ground. And maybe Kelmomas is just another unknown unknown. A fatal blind spot. Makes sense and is coherent with everyone else being fooled while being ahead. From Maithanet onward, but also including Survivor. There’s always a greater circuit and the Absolute just another fraud. But it’s all too vague to me, and kind of pointless. Ajokli being everywhere at once and not having discernible agency… and the whole concept of damnation.

It’s again something that I scribbled on the margins at the beginning of the book: if saving a soul is an individualistic goal, why does it become a collective effort?

It’s implied again and again that this is what matters, truly. What happens to your soul. Eternal damnation is the real motive, behind all the Inchoroi do and all the men of the Ordeal. The physical life is indeed nothing compared to eternal damnation, when eternal damnation is proven real. That’s the greater gravitational pull. But this world is so ravaged by HORROR that it seems to make no sense to me. I guess it’s the same as justifying a war, and yet wars happen all the time. Why would so many people damn themselves in order to buy a minuscule chance at salvation in some remote future, for someone else? Why if salvation and damnation are the only ends, so many destroy their own lives and damn themselves? Why fight for THIS world?

The plan of the Ichoroi is the most persuasive for that reason. If you don’t want to accept the implied “extortion”, the only option is to seal the horror away. Not embracing it. But it is incoherent because in order to seal hell away, they enact it where they are. They make the world hell, in order to be saved from hell, all the while damning and throwing themselves INTO hell. What is even the point, beside the Inchoroi being basically programmed to the task by instinct and so having very little say on their own choices?

In any case, all other options are shit. This is a world whose only answer is: FUCK IT ALL.

The only RATIONAL answer is Cnaiur’s. Unconditional HATE.

Not targeted hate. But worldborne hate. Dunyain hate. About the substance of the world. About the substance of the gods. About the substance of humanity. HATE IT ALL.

And again not hate that destroys and pillages, like in this case Cnaiur would do, but hate that despises participation. That simply renounces existence like “Survivor” had. A world not worth fighting for. Because participation is intrinsically enacting the same.

If anything, but without a single explicit point, this story answer is pacifism driven by HATE. Hate for the gods and the abomination they created as architects. Hate for humanity.

Achamian is caught in there like the idiot he is. First, he’s moved by narcissism. He wants to prove himself right. He wants to be vindicated. He wants the approval that he never had. A life spent not being believed and not being known. It’s funny how in the last few pages he becomes “himself.” First he’s completely flabbergasted, then Mimara shoves a fistful of ash into his mouth and he gets transfigured into Seswatha. He’s finally “home”:

“The Second Apocalypse is upon us!”
“Flee! Flee, Sons of Men!”

What cages Achamian to this shitty, pointless world is that he has a son. The moment he started dragging around Mimara, is the moment he either fucked up, or made the only meaningful choice. Both options being identical, just a way of looking at the same piece of the world. Who is so stupid to bear children into a world as shitty as this? You fucked it up. Good luck now.

While I accused Ajokli of occupying all places, it is made explicit that his/its goal (as Kellhus) isn’t the same as the Ark. When “offered” the coffin, he refuses. But what’s his own endgame, then? It is implied, contradicting again the above, that the Ark is not his craft. He is “master” on the Ark, indeed, but merely because to be used as a weapon against hell, the Ark had to use the same exploit that bore the Ark close to hell. And so vulnerable to its assault. The weapon to use against, became the weakness that opened a breach. What would be then the averted Apocalypse? The No-God not actually walking, but Kellhus being firmly under control of Ajokli? I guess the breach of the boundary. Bringing hell directly onto the world. So quite “bad.” What the alternative? On its own the Ark was meant to seal hell away. Which is ironically “good” …as long the process of delivery of that goal is ignored. The Apocalypse is therefore… “good”?

A level of silliness that can’t be put on the page:
“So a group of eternally damned souls, having no other fruitful option, decided to build an otherworldly spaceship to attempt flight from Hell and BACK into the physical realm, while carrying with them a wondrous device that would allow them to seal Hell away, given a large enough human sacrifice. So that they could enjoy a newfound autonomy. Turning eternal damnation into eternal orgy, I suppose.”

I guess there’s no supervision in Hell that prevents the building of spacecrafts? Or maybe they managed to steal one of Ajokli’s boats that he uses to go on vacation on Earth?

But why would the Mutilated be onboard with this plan, if the plan sacrifices all men (so including themselves) in order to save the Inchoroi? (see below where I complain more about this arbitrary racism)

Back to Kellhus, it seems going back to the fear of Achamian, that giving him the gnosis would be too much power, and a greater risk. The only thing Kellhus mentions confirms this, but feels quite hollow. I can’t even go in order through all the different problematic aspects. The Ark itself, as a device seems… racist? The most authoritative piece of information says the sarcophagus “is a prosthesis of the Ark” and that its function is to read a code hidden on the world that can only be detected through many deaths. And after reading this whole code the Ark is then able to “shut the world” against the Outside. All of these are arbitrary mechanics to the extreme. But IF this thing called the Ark comes from the Outside, as an instrument of the gods/Ajekli, why is it powered by “Tekne”, which is basically science? Why is the distinction alien/demons, that would be science/magic, get completely capsized, so that the demons use technology rather than sorcery? Why should a god invent science as a tool, within a magical realm, only to send a MAGICAL spaceship through some portal and crashing into the real world? This stuff is so convoluted that it does not make sense discussing about it at the level of plot, much less trying to extract some sort of relevant meaning out of it.

If it works is only in the scope of the truly alien from other planets, that would be quite shallow anyway, and also quite detached from the rest, as seen above. (There’s even a section, in some previous book, where it is explicitly said that this is not the first planet scoured by the Inchoroi. So while this is overall more coherent, despite the giant red herrings in the glossary, it is still the least interesting option and I’m not fond of dwelling more on it.)

“If the extermination of Men is your goal.” Told to the Mutilated… Aren’t the Mutilated ALSO men? Aren’t nonmen ALSO men? Weren’t the Inchoroi actually fighting nonmen during the first Apocalypse? Wasn’t Nau-Cayuti, as an ancestor to Kellhus ALSO a man? Isn’t Kelmomas ALSO a man? What is exactly is the PROFIT of sealing the world, if there’s no one left living to reap that reward? If the extermination of Men is the goal, then the Mutilated are going to toss themselves into damnation, only so that the world would be sealed right AFTER them. So in the end the world would be sealed just after all souls were moved to the Outside. A world “saved” by leaving it empty? Great job, you sealed the Outside from the other side. So that now you don’t have to worry anymore about eternal damnation, you’ve simply secured it perpetually for all souls existing. Even then, why the sarcophagus ONLY works with one of those specific ancestors? It seems oddly specific for either an ALIEN or otherworldly device that as to be built abstracted from its context. Unless you target it knowingly. But then how? Who?

(There are a couple lines in the book that appear as non sequitur. One is Kellhus mentioning some 144.000 something. I think a reference to that Inchoroi backstory that I forgot from some previous book, either 5 or 6. The other is that one of the Mutilated is immediately killed by Kellhus. He’s the only one who talks at that moment, but what he says is de-emphasized by the fact Kellhus only wanted four horsemen of the Apocalypse, but at the same time it seems blatant misdirection, that he killed that one because he mentioned something that he shouldn’t have… What he says is that “he” hides here. That “his siblings hunt him and he thinks he can hide from.” If this refers to Ajokli, then it could be quite important. Even if I really dislike having to chase the illusion of a major plot twist and explanation held up by a single line… It’s not enough to grasp. But if that’s true, how one of the Mutilated could have known such a thing? Simple deduction? It’s quite a stretch, but who are “his siblings”? The other gods? Is it a reference to Cnaiur? Or Ajokli itself is splintered in a number of independent selves who are competing while hiding behind the same surface mask? Again, it’s not enough to speculate.)

By the way, they removed the Chorae from the carapace to fit Kellhus in (he has sorcery). Then forgot to place them back, for Kelmomas (no sorcery). Why aren’t the Chorae back? Were they a simple afterthought?

“The No-God collapses Subject and Object”, yes, indeed, this is the Absolute by definition. Also the world. But also not. We know in this flavor of metaphysics the world is the will of the GoG (a rather crappy, lackluster will, if anything), who imposes a certain degree of stability and objectivity to the physical dimension. The Subject (or rather, subjectivity) is instead the domain of the Outside. Where it is more fragmented through the division of the various gods, each pursuing its own end and negotiating some relative degree of control (including, maybe, Ajokli power grab).

Thus… The GoG is the No-God. A contradiction. The GoG is not the sum of the gods. Therefore the GoG should be already the domain of the objective. Of the world for what it is. Without a soul, like our REAL world. Maybe you could see as an antithesis not of essence. So the No-God and the GoG are the same essence. But the GoG is over there, and the No-God is the physical manifestation on the physical realm. Even then, wtf Mimara was doing with the Eye of the God, looking at the No-God, so itself? And being horrified by itself?

There is no working angle to all of this that makes any sense for me. There’s the layer of the simple plot, the fantasy world as it is built with all its arbitrary rules that you read about and accept. And I don’t know what to make of it. And then there’s the layer of the symbolic and metaphoric, how you translate concept into a fantasy world in order to better expose some truths. Like Blind Brain Theory. And I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF IT. Neither layer leads anywhere intelligible.

WTF was the point? What it was that Bakker intended to do?

All this arbitrary application of devices, of arbitrary rules, of accepting this but not that, working toward goals that benefit no one or anything. Where this race has to be exterminated, but not that. We know the Great Ordeal moved on fraudulent ground, men were simply deceived. They were religious zealots, so whatever they believed had to be false on principle. But the motivations underneath, after you remove the deception and manipulation, don’t make any sense.

What world is the one where every option is bad? Where Ajokli conquered all options?

What was Cnaiur going to do? He walks toward the No-God, believing it be Kellhus. The horde parts before him, rather than assault. Because HE IS Ajokli, and if he’s who crafted the Ark, he is MASTER here. Or, if he’s not, he’s unseen. For whatever rules of sight apply, when Ajokli is not conjoined with Kellhus (but here there’s no reason why Cnaiur shouldn’t confer the same grasp on the sight, given that both Cnaiur and Kellhus are men). And then? Does he try to wave up at the flying carapace to be noticed? Does he try to jump and see if he’s able to reach it? Does he realize Kellhus is not inside and so he simply walks back? WHAT IS THE POINT?

WHAT DO YOU SEE?

WHAT DID I JUST READ?

I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE!?

Bakker certainly doesn’t need nor deserve my mockery. But I have no fucking clue. As I wrote above, there is probably a lot that’s on me, as a failure as a reader. But usually I have some grasp or intuition. Not in the sense that I understand things anyway, but that there’s a certain known negotiation between what I did not understand, and what I think I can dig out, given more effort. It’s funny because it would be like measuring the breadth of a blind spot, which this story should have taught that you can’t measure what you don’t know. But this has usually been a working yardstick for me, a working heuristics. I have an idea of what a more careful reread could lead to, and I know that there are instead aspects of the story that I can’t argue. That there are no footholds and handholds. That there isn’t enough there that is usable to contribute meaningfully to these aspects I haven’t understood. Some of that end became a dull confusion, that didn’t coalesce nor suggest something meaningful.

System initiation. Resumption. Of what and why it is for me impossible to decipher. Much less “agree with.”

I could go back to look better at those sections about the dreams, the eerie tree that was mentioned both in books 2 and 6. The section after the head on the pole. But I know there’s not enough there. Not even remotely so. There is nothing for me that is usable in any way. Maybe I’ll change opinion but I feel like this is not for me something to re-read. I think I understood and taken away what I could, and probably more, given that I was familiar with the concept. Given that I already started again from book 1, so it was already a partial re-read.

In a world made of tier lists and best of the year, I’ll say that this as a whole is the most important thing I’ve ever read, and will likely remain so for whatever I’ve left to live. I guess that’s enough of a final statement, despite everything I wrote above. I’ll also say that Bakker is my favorite writer next to David Foster Wallace. This can be seen as a pretentious statement, of someone who’s trying to elevate one with the other through association, to better elevate oneself. But for me the two writers are actually very close. Not doing different things, standing at a similar height but on different pillars. There is something homogeneous, the way I see it (and isn’t Emilidis a little bit like James Incandenza, finding ways to break the world through artistic artifacts?). When I read DFW the first time, through The Broom of the System, the experience of reading had an unique quality. I felt changed while reading, and it was a lingering feeling that lasted a little while after I closed the book. It’s like being dosed on a drug, a physical sensation, but very subtle and fleeting. Distinct enough to be felt clearly, but still faint and impermanent. The EXACT same feeling I have reading Bakker. There is a before and after. A physical subtle shift, due to my way of getting tuned in. And yet again vanishing soon after. The Logos itself stays. The things being explicit. The ideas. But that subtle grasp and being tuned to that particular frequency is something that goes away not long after. Something that accompanied me through the months, through the last couple of years while reading all these seven books from the first page. That has been with me regularly, making my brain light up. And that I’ll now surrender because I know it goes away.

When I read Infinite Jest I dug a bit into a few things that were available. The ending to the Broom of the System was abrupt (much like the ending here, more similar to it than Infinite Jest). So abrupt that it has haunted me for a long time. I never dared re-read the book because I feared what I was NOT going to be able to find. A deep seated frustration for not being smart enough. Resenting that no matter the effort, it’s out of my reach. That the book is both for me and against me. I remember (vaguely) some note DFW wrote to the editor of IJ, acknowledging that the ending of the Broom upset the readers. And that he was going to do it AGAIN in IJ. He said that at the end the readers should know some 30% about one character, 60& about another, and 90% about a third. The way the book ends, both books, is deliberate. He had his reasons. DFW often said that readers shouldn’t ask him about IJ, because he cannot answer. Because the book was so sprawling and it went through so many editing phases and cuts, that the author simply didn’t know what got published in the end. His own memory was a fragmented mess of pieces. Whatever is the final book, he didn’t know and did not want to know. Even if the moment it was shipped it was what he wanted. That he gave it everything he possibly could.

Even still, the fact that DFW did not have a total control at the end, and that the editor messed with the thing and made cuts, left the door open to the idea of a mythical version of IJ, hidden away. Some book beyond the book, that was at the same time less and more. A mythical other half, written but not read. In Bakker’s case there’s nothing giving way to similar doubts and unfounded hopes. He said explicitly that THIS is the book he wanted to write. That THIS is the destination, the way he intended. When it was confirmed that the book was going to be split, as it was already expected, he said that this gave him one more year, possibly to continue working on the second part. He needed to complete the glossary, but still had enough time to revise and expand, if he wanted. He said explicitly that he decided not to. That he didn’t want to mess with what he had done beside fixing a sentence here and there. He was pleased. There is no other intervening factor, no editor who took over. Nothing else. This is his book and his intent.

It’s ironic that I think at some point before writing the last book Bakker did read Infinite Jest. And did not think much of it. For much of my failures as a reader, both on DFW and Bakker sides, I am the bridge.

Bakker could not see DFW, like a No-God. And DFW is quite dead, so who knows.

I can see both.

(I have not yet read the two stories that come after the end, set in ancient time, nor have dug into the glossary. That’s what I have left to read, but it’s unlikely that I’ll write about.)

(There’s tons of other notes I wrote that ended up not part of this, mostly about the broader overview and interpretation of the series as a whole, rather than continue arguing about the last few pages that make the ending. But I don’t have a way of fitting them here. It’s more probable that I won’t, as I’m already drained enough, but in the case I decide to write about that, it will be under a post titled: “We are all sranc.”)

Ongoing edit: One part of me would really like to move on, free my mind, because I’m tired and writing more is exhausting. But it looks like I’m not able to do it, I can’t move on. Right now I have at least three things building up on their own. 1, a post dedicated solely to the discussion of patriarchy and misogyny in the series, 2, a post dedicated to the decapitants and some interpretation of further possibilities and explanations of the end, 3, a large post of fragments of comments. As a large dump of everything I’m reading on the internet (ASOIAF forums are one of the sources I’m going through), as feedback on all the books, so that it can be cut and condensed to filter everything that I think is pertinent as analysis or commentary…

This final scene of Gravity’s Rainbow is not dissimilar to the endings of Pynchon’s other novels, which nearly all conclude in breathlessness, anticipation, or sublime silence. On the surface it is most similar to the conclusions of the two novels that precede it: V. ends in contemplation of the sublime and ancient waters of the Mediterranean, where the novel’s historical narratives sink from view having exhausted their symbolic resources. The Crying of Lot 49 is also brought to the edge of comprehension, though its mystery remains shrouded in the aura of expectation. Just wait! The word is about to be spoken; the sublime hesitation will break and the fullness of meaning will come crashing back in to dispel our partial paranoias and hypotheses.

The novel’s end therefore stands as an enigma—grammatically neither the ellipsis of Pynchon’s other endings, nor the parenthesis of his trademark musical interludes—which seems ready to announce some urgent truth only after its ability to be spoken has expired.

Quoted from here.

Completely meaningless given the habit here, but I “announce” I’ll not write about books coming from big publishers unless they are at least three years old.

I’m done supporting this shit.

Only mentioning here the recent Sanderson big book was out the 7th December. The American Tor edition, 10 days later, is completely unavailable in Europe. Not because the copies have been sold out due to demand, but because they were NEVER SHIPPED. Due to a market agreement with the UK publisher. Which is funny since the UK isn’t part of the EU, so why should it monopolize its market?

Not even touching how the cost of books hasn’t simply increased, but multiplied x3 in three years. Reading has become an hobby for the rich.

But still, it’s funny.

My order was just 26 euros at the time, and is currently suspended since no copies were shipped to Europe. Meanwhile the UK edition is available everywhere. In Italian online shops the American edition is delisted, it won’t come up even with specific searches using the ISBN.

I don’t really care, I’m still something like 150 pages into the second book, it’s quite probable I’ll never get to the point of reading the fifth. I just despise this whole situation.

Roll back a few years, I remember clearly I ordered the American hardback of Words of Radiance, it was shipped by Amazon early and arrived one day before even the American launch date. I wrote a post about it.

Years later, Oathbringer took a week to get delivered. Then Amazon killed The Book Depository, in order to better serve its own monopoly.

I’m sorry for the writers, obviously, but I hope these publishers go burn in hell. Bye.

(meanwhile, it took a full year but I got all 15 main books part of Michelle West giant saga, all bought as used copies with the exception of the most recent, that had to be self-published anyway. And so I had to go support her directly on Patreon)

EDIT:
The book arrived on 23 December. On Amazon the book currently looks still unavailable and sold at an insane price, so I suppose they are fulfilling the orders they already have while trying to discourage new ones.

So time for the traditional book review, of the book itself as an object.

Starting from the price. I have all the original hardcover, so I can list them as they were:
– The Way of Kings: $27.99 August 2010
– Words of Radiance: $28.99 March 2013
– Oathbringer: $34.99 November 2017
– Rhythm of War: $34.99 November 2020
– Wind and Truth: $39.99 December 2024

A note about the “acknowledgement” page, it was usually quite long and interesting to read. In book 5 it’s still long, but it became just a simple list of names.

The cover illustrations, I like Whelan well enough, but his illustrations are hit and miss for me. Certain ones are exceptional, others not so much. The cover of the first book is impersonal and with nice colors. I like it, it feels like the dawn of a new series. It gives a nice sense of scale and the worst thing about it is that it’s all covered by words. Also, that style of more lean armors looks way better than the bulkier weird things that got shown afterwards. The second book cover is instead quite terrible, which is funny because the colored internal illustration, again by Whelan and depicting Shallan is WAY better and should have been on the cover. The cover itself is of a bland and of a sickly yellow, the illustration lacks detail. It’s just bad. The one for the third book is okay, but the sword looks weird, and then it’s just a plain, anonymous wall with a swirly thing that seems to come from her hand but not really. The illustration is fine, the subject chosen quite bad. The fourth book is good, it has good colors once again, it is weird in a good way, but it feels some kind of threshold left/right. Too rigid. It suffers a bit for not feeling a real organic landscape, but something cut and pasted. And here it comes the last book, that seems to recall the first, but failing. The colors are all washed out, it would have looked better with more contrast. The platform takes too much space and looks plain. The whirlpool thing is all unaligned for some reason, the “eye” at the top, the cone below and the hand. The mountainous environment makes for a more oppressive place compared to the first cover, but it’s also more common and anonymous. It’s an okay cover for a fantasy book, just not a good one.

From the third book, the soft cover “fold over”, however it’s called, got a colored map of the world. Print quality got actually better here. Makes a jump between book 3 and 4, but it is again slightly better in book 5, with crispier colors.

It’s good they kept a consistent style through all the books, but the spine of the fold over went from an horizontal title to a vertical one, from Oathbringer onward (if publishers knew what they were doing, they’d sell updated folds over as an accessory, people would buy them). But if you remove it, the actual hardcover is consistent all the way through, looking really nice side by side. Book 2 stands out because it’s quite thicker, despite the lower number of pages, as we’ll see later.

For the internal cover illustrations, the first book had maps, with excellent printing quality, the second book has a spread illustration looking really good, from the third you get these tarot-like illustrations, but last two books the printing quality is not as good because the illustrations are way too dark and lacking detail because of it. Probably more directly related to the original illustrations being overall darker in this last book, that doesn’t translate well on paper.

A note about the “hard” cover, and product quality in general. The books became progressively more expensive, but feeling a bit cheaper in quality as well. The hard cover in this last volume is actually thinner than book 4, you can feel it. But even overall, the binding, the paper, it all got cheaper.

As written above, when you look at them side by side book 2 is the bigger by far, merely because it uses similar paper of the first, but slightly heavier. From book 3 onward the paper is of a different kind, smoother, but got another downgrade with this book 5. That’s why despite being 1300 pages it still look just as thick as the previous, the paper is almost a veil, extremely light. This seems to affect printing quality as well. Looking at the black and white map at the beginning, the printing quality across all volumes got progressively worse, and especially bad in this last volume. The coasts all around the continent have become an unreadable deep-grey smudge. Though it could be unrelated and simply a random variation of the printing process, hard to say if it’s actually a difference from book to book or just between printed batches of the same. The rest of the illustrations spread through the pages look generally fine.

I’ve watched already some non-spoiler reviews on youtube, enough to actually have a good idea of what’s the deal. I don’t like the constricting nature of the 10 days structure and it’s usually a bad idea in general because the story has less room, no matter how large is the timespan. It puts things on rails and as a reading experience it feels diminished. But I’ll also link some comments by Werthead that were both quite scathing and funny to read. Whether positive or partially negative, all I heard about the book is quite aligned.

Overall, could be better and could be worse (still commenting just on the physical object here, not the story). In the end they kept the style and it’s acceptably consistent. And for me (I’m perpetually 160 pages into the second book and every several months I start again from page 1, but I like that initial part overall better than all of book 1), it’s nice knowing that whenever I feel like there’s so much to still read and space to stretch.

“You despair because like a child you thought that Truth alone could save the World…”

“But it is strength that saves, Brother, not Truth…”

And strength burns brightest upon Lies!

Yes, the last book in the series was split in two parts even if it was written and meant as one. The second part is titled “The Unholy Consult”, not “The Holy Apocalypse”. I made that up. And no, I only have read the first part. The Unholy Consult is next.

These are then, again, some scattered, always incomplete thoughts about the first half.

This book has defeated me on many levels. When I started, over a year ago from the very beginning, the intention was to read carefully and slowly. I’d rather stop and go back than miss something, and this seemed to have worked well, up and including The White-Luck Warrior. One aspect of this whole saga is that it’s very consistent and uniform. And when I speak about these things I often make comparisons to Malazan, because Malazan is instead so much more uneven, variable even in writing quality. But that’s not directly a flaw. Malazan varies in tone, sometimes it’s humorous or satirical and sometimes it’s savage and dramatic. It’s so much more sprawling. On the other hand all Bakker writes is obsessively focused and sharp. It never strays, and it never falters. The writing feels, line after line, like the Narindar: directed from the outside.

The distinction works as a whole. Erikson always resented the label of “grimdark.” While I’ve not yet read The Crippled God, I think he wrote the book to defy all those expectations, of writing a nihilistic bloodbath. Because Malazan is intrinsically “humanist.” The journey through bleakness is necessary to come out as human, renewed. It clings on hope. But Bakker instead is the opposite. It’s inhuman. The eye looking from outside the human. The zero point of Dunyain absolute. If grimdark is derogatory and exaggerated for Malazan, it’s understated and reductive in the case of Bakker’s work. There is nothing left standing after Bakker. If as an author he was able to climb over Tolkien’s shoulders, to look from above, it won’t be possible to repeat the same with Bakker himself, because the path was meant to be walked once. Then it is gone. The Holy Apocalypse.

This overall uniformity of quality and sharp focus are probably the most evident aspect of this work. Yet, it is an apparent contradiction with how much the first two books in this second series shrug away most of the philosophy, most of the high concepts, to focus more on ground (and underground) level introspection. It became more an aggressive engagement with Tolkien’s Silmarillion, toying and subverting tropes. But again, despite the uniformity, this third book changes everything. From the first pages and all the way to the end, it’s a mad rush on acids. If I was able to follow and match the writing up to this point, at least within my very limited perception, I felt like I lost all control here. I had to start accepting to keep reading while leaving things behind. Feeding on minor cues, offering glimpses of profundity. The head on a pole was the most evident, but then the pile grows larger. But at every step I was on awe of the little, minuscule things. The fraction I was collecting was always staggering, impossible. Line by line, this book opens upon chasms. Impossible to track. Impossible to encompass. Bigger and more meaningful that I can embrace and contain as a reader.

And so the small things. There are many points, scattered through all the book, where the micro details of introspection become unbelievable in their authenticity. It’s like watching a movie by professional actors who honed their skills to perfection, versus a movie done with people who’ve never been on a stage, but people who play on screen their own life. And you feel and understand that the visceral truth of what they do could never be replicated by an actor. They are as they are. The same here, where the writing acquires an otherworldly reality in the passages that are the least meaningful when it comes to plot and story. This one quoted here because I’ve just read it:

There is something ominous about the way the old Wizard collects himself from the ground.
Suddenly she fears the vacant expression on his face as much their captors.
The soul that is perpetually beset often loses patience with life…

There is a sense of finality, with another 400 pages or so left, that becomes metaphysical. Achamian has had enough. Beyond care, beyond survival. Achamian is as usual a point of view of the reader. It means the story ends here. It ENDS HERE. No matter what. After all the impossible journey through six books, it ends here.

He is done with madness, Mimara can tell. He would quit his ancient contest with the Whore, even at the cost of his life.
Were he alone, she knows, this would all end in salt and incineration.

“Let it all burn.”

What appears as different perspectives fuse into one. He becomes a concept, through the Judging Eye.

This is the Apocalypse made Holy. And the silence that follows.

Though leading to a number of things that I don’t quite accept. Maybe because of my lack of understanding, or maybe bias. It doesn’t really matter. The scene with the Scylvendi doesn’t quite work. It doesn’t work because, as Achamian, I was ready to hug the guy despite everything. Bakker can’t have that, so he makes that scene another ordeal, but it doesn’t work because of this disconnect. Due to his writing I was actually doubtful that this type of encounter would happen. It was predictable, but it’s Bakker, it might as well not happen. So when it does happen you’re carried away by that elation, and it causes such a sharp disconnect with where the scene would have the reader dragged to. That the Scylvendi are exactly as we left them is also quite unlikely. It’s as if they were simply paused in the twenty years gap, when in comparison everything else, especially in this book, really does feel the passage of time.

Something similar with my dearest character, Theliopa, and second favorite in this book, “Survivor.” Again, take it as bias or limited understanding, but I don’t quite accept, logically, what happens here. Theliopa becomes more than a doll in a corner, she looms close to Kelmomas and for the first time she becomes a threat. She is in control. These scenes and themes echo Dune Messiah, and as usual what Bakker reuses he also sharpens. The idea of a threat exposed, known by both parties (same as also the reciprocal concealment between the Gods and No-God, also from Dune Messiah). But this doesn’t last long, and in the shape of the story it seems her function shrinks to become a misdirection for Kellhus, much like the assassination of Maithanet in the previous book. Theliopa gets brushed away so easily, so to create the possibility that just the same could happen for Kellhus, later in the book. Is it really all she amounts to? A minor trick? I don’t accept this not because her function isn’t more, but because it doesn’t feel coherent. She’s too smart to not do anything. It makes sense she behaves as passive, but she’s also supposed to be smarter in the wider context. She’s too easily wrapped up even if there are reasons for this. It’s simply too partial, feeling incomplete. Then, when the story gets to repeat itself with Kellhus, I couldn’t quite follow. We have something like three different points of view, and the idea is they contradict each other for obvious reasons. But I couldn’t fully understand what happens. I got confused by the spinning sword, by a tear that seems to be like a chorae, but then may be just metaphor. Theliopa was crushed by mere debris, Kellhus just dances around it. Before interference happens. The Narindar makes a funny surprised face when Kelmomas interferes, which already on its own is quite weird. He was inhuman, moving like a robot. I’d have expected that when the program fails he’d rather start moving as if following a wrong map, or simply freeze. But he makes a surprised or shocked face as if he was able to feel the moment. As an act of consciousness. Was this part in favor of understanding, to make simply Kelmomas aware?

And again, “this is the end.” There’s a thematic link between Achamian above, and here Kelmomas. As it happened again and again, Kelmomas is defeated. Every time he thinks being ahead, and he plays the game, only to realize he missed giant pieces of the puzzle. He constantly miscalculates the miscalculation. His own plans go wrong only to turn out in his favor out of luck, even if outside his control. But like Achamian, when the context shifts the World shifts. This is the end. It’s over. The story demands more, but the story ends here.

Kelmomas suffered only a peculiar numbness, a curious sense of having outgrown not so much his mother or his old life as existence altogether.
It was a stupid game anyway.

No matter how silly and outlandish, delusions of predestination affect us all.

The Game. It had been the Game all along!
Play was all that remained.
All that mattered.

The story ends here, for sure, in the case of Survivor. And it’s a perfect circle, closing the function of the Dunyain. Closing what started in the first book. At some random point while reading I thought about the few pages at the very end of book two. One of those things that didn’t really lead anywhere else, but still worked fine. You read that scene at the end of the book, and expect to see some kind of fall over in the third, but then that book is preoccupied about different stuff, so it all goes away. My mind goes back to that point, only to shrug. What was that about? It’s kind of funny when it dawned on me. I made the connection, long after the fact, and the first thing I thought was: “well, the timing is all wrong anyway.” And then it dawned on me that the timing worked perfectly. Because there’s a twenty year gap. When Achamian and Mimara arrive, Ishual is destroyed. The Consult has been active, they were, right at the end of book two. Precisely in that scene. They met the oddity that was Kellhus, who could see through the skin spies. They learned of the Dunyain. Just like Achamian, they started looking. And eventually they found what they wanted, having more practical manners of interrogation than stumbling through dreams. Unless I’ve misinterpreted, and unless that link was immediately obvious. For me it arrived late and out of happenstance.

We see what was already obvious: that the Absolute was just another delusion. The innocence of Survivor’s gaze is endearing. Him and the child are essentially one and the same, but for Survivor it’s the end. He faces the Judging Eye with curiosity, and knowledge destroys him. As it should (with one important caveat). He understands that the closed loop that the Dunyain wanted to seize and become, is slave to another, bigger loop. The context opens, the picture is revealed as incomplete. The knowledge is impossible. And he decides that it is over. It’s a perfect circle for what Dunyain are thematically, but for me it is another part that doesn’t make sense logically, like Theliopa’s death. This is another zero point, it doesn’t quite follow that suicide is the natural answer, rather than simple inaction (and the scene at the end of the book, where Achamian accuses Mimara of having killed Survivor, and her reply that the Eye offered the Absolute… makes no sense to me. I don’t understand a single thing about that dialogue. I don’t understand what it was meant to reveal, and how it’s different than what Achamian was saying). It is neat thematically, but it’s not enough to sustain it logically from my point of view. While the Dunyain have failed, the true reason is still missing. Survivor’s whole journey, from the beginning to its end in this book is the best part of it all. It works thematically, it’s deep and condensed even if understated. It’s intimate despite the inhuman logic that strips of all emotion. It’s extremely emotional because it’s empty of rhetoric. No explanation is given, a choice is made. And that’s as “holy” as it can be. Once again, the story ends here. Another fracture of reality. It ends in silence, no matter my protests.

There’s also a problem that may well be my own understanding, but it’s so plain that I cannot see even the possibility of another angle to look at it. Within a few pages we get a contrasting description of Kellhus haloed hands, from the same point of view:

And as they said, haloes framed his head and hands, the ghosts of golden plates… markless.

Golden discs shimmered about a head and hands noxious for their Mark.

What am I missing here? These “miraculous” hands are one of those hanging questions without even a tentative answer. Without even hypothesis. It would make sense they are without mark, since they indicate an exception. The hands are “holy” and so made distinct. But then why a few pages later they are instead described as noxious? A mistake? Me again missing something obvious? (unless the distinction is between the haloes and actual hands, but it seems weird)

In the end, this is a story about kids. Not because they provide any sort of relevant answer, but because they become a burden. When Survivor decides to kill himself, he knows that Mimara will take care of the kid. He understands his world is gone, that it was all a fraud, so he simply chooses a time and place to be done with it because he has nothing more in himself. If Achamian doesn’t stop and incinerates everything, it is only because he’s right next to Mimara. These ties are more inconvenient that meaningful. The same ties that Survivor himself exploited in order to manipulate the outcome. The one inner Dunyain loop.

And he hung upon his terror as a smile breaking, understanding at last that fatherhood, more than anything else, was mummery, the will to be a father needed, not the father you happened to be.

It’s probable my interpretation as a whole is completely wrong, but past this point nothing matters. We aren’t moving toward answers, we’re moving toward annihilation. The Holy Apocalypse. For Erikson the journey through despair is a pleading to the reader, to give answers. A cycle that goes from ancient gods to modern ones, only to then turn inward. But it’s a story of emancipation. To become responsible without moving the blame to higher powers. To be self moving souls like Dunyain. But in Bakker’s case nothing is left standing. Tolkien, fantasy, literature in general, philosophy, human culture and humanity as a whole. All is seized to be destroyed. This can only happen because of Bakker’s dedication. Because he loves philosophy, because he loves Tolkien. Because of a complete dedication and study. There are two paths of interpretation: thinking he mocks out of love, and thinking he mocks to elevate himself. As a sense of superiority.

But nothing is left standing. Bakker makes everything naked and ashamed. Everyone is a fraud. Tolkien is debased, fantasy is debased, philosophy is debased. But, as a reader, you come to Bakker as a disciple kneeling in front of a wise man. A great philosopher that gives important answers. This is how I read Proyas/Kellhus. The reader kneeling, begging to be fucked over, because there’s power in the author and reader relationship. And so Bakker mocks and debases himself. Himself as a philosopher, himself as a writer. He then mocks and debases the reader. The reader who’s just another fool. Nothing is left standing. The culling is so complete to be Holy.

In a way, it works like Wittgenstein’s ladder. You climb it to reach a vantage point. To reach a state of understanding. And you do reach it. Only to realize that it’s all gone. They you hold nothing in your hands. That the ladder itself is gone. That you can’t do anything with what you understood.

In contrast to all this highly conceptual ground, I have no idea what to make of the perspective of the last book (or second part of last book). At this point I guess I miraculously dodged spoilers, but in general I HAVE NO IDEA where this story might go. Not so much that it is unpredictable, but in the sense that I cannot even shape one single possibility. I have no idea. But I do feel like I was reading the third book, even more so. The number of big, unanswered questions have piled up so high that the remaining 400 or so pages aren’t even remotely enough. It doesn’t matter. The story has ended several times already within the confines of the book I’m closing now. But if we care about “trivialities”, the whole layer of metaphysics and plot is hanging in the void. Book three closed with Kellhus either going mad or seeing further than his father. As he explained, he expected his father to eventually align with the Consult. But what is Kellhus doing here? The sections early about the head on the pole seemed to indicate that Kellhus is actually doing what he blamed his father would do: to use the No-God, to wage war against the Heavens. Because at this point, even the Consult isn’t enough. The Heaven is only a space of hungry gods, it was made clear that there’s nothing worth saving there. So the immediate answer, to close the World against the Outside, would make the most logical sense. But the story ends here: what is worth saving ON THIS SIDE?

Cnaiür urs Skiötha was the murderer who cast himself into his victims, who choked and shrieked with them …

To better suckle upon the fact of his own dread power…

To make the World’s throat a surrogate for his own…

In many ways, all Cnaiur does through the first three books is seeking his own death, without finding it. He challenges the World to be up to the task, and the World comes short.

Why? When there are so many monsters?

The Consult is not enough. The world has already ended. Bring on the Holy Apocalypse.

When the World goes mad, you shout louder.

Instead he heard the voice, uttered through a hundred thousand Sranc throats, flaring like bright-burning coals packed into his skull.

You and me. We are Sranc.

I was going to write this as a goodreads update, but decided to move it here, since it’s relevant to continue “the head on the pole.”

Chapter 4 is rather troubling. Some of it seems disappointing, or dismaying. If the whole cryptic section on the head on the pole was open to suggestive interpretation, this chapter implies the head on the pole is the No-God. At the very least the purpose of the chapter it to lead the reader there. Is it misdirection? I don’t know and I don’t worry about it, because I’m not reading to outsmart Bakker, or anticipate the story and guess it right. I’m only trying to… understand.

The head on the pole being the No-God “flattens” the number of interesting possibilities. It’s kind of plain and not especially surprising or insightful. It is not meaningful. Kellhus has gone mad, he’s now doing what he himself accused his father would have done: side with the No-God and fight the heavens. It doesn’t add to it or solve anything. It only hammers it back to what it was.

But as I was reading, I realized that I was going through similar emotions as Proyas. The interplay goes on so many different layers that I can’t even properly backtrack them again here.

Kellhus/Bakker and Proyas/me as a reader.

Is Kellhus an impostor?
Is Bakker an impostor?

In the same way Proyas is dismayed, but clings desperately to his own faith, he seizes not the present, but the past. He was there. He has seen those days of the holy war. He knows. In the same way, I, as a reader, know what Bakker is writing about. I know what it is and why it’s meaningful. It’s not in the present, but cemented in the past of what I already read before. In the same days of the holy war, but physically as a book.

And yet Serwe burns in Hell.
And yet, for all I’ve done, the world burns.

What is left here?

Sorrow and scrutiny.

There is no recompense… save knowing.

I decided to take a look across the internet, trying to dodge spoilers. And I glimpsed two important aspects: the first is that this is seen as a rather unique passage in all the books, and that it doesn’t seem like Bakker clarifies it through what’s left for me to read.

This motivated me to write down here what I’m thinking. Through several rereads, across many days, there are layers to my thoughts and so many ideas going in different directions that I have no hope of retrieving from memory and archiving the whole of it. But at least if I write here what I currently have, at least I won’t lose that. I use this blog more for myself than communicating with the outside.

Let’s start from the end: “The living shall not haunt the dead.”

This is something that troubled me because I don’t have much to offer. It felt incongruous with the rest of the scene. But it comes here first because it comes first in the chapter. This is the first line, and it comes attached to a different part, with the men of the Great Ordeal eating Sranc. That line is appended there, so that it then returns to close the section I’m commenting here. But in the case of Sranc, it doesn’t tell me much… These are dead bodies being eaten, echoing what happens inside the section. The living aren’t haunting the dead, maybe the opposite since the sense of the first scene is some men complaining the practice of eating Sranc is changing them from the inside. “The meat.” “What of it?” “My… my soul… It grows more disordered because of it.

There is more to the meat, but this we’ll see later. The living, here, aren’t haunting the dead, because the dead are dead and the living still living. This “divide” has been a theme in these last few books, and the line is thinning. But at this point there is no crossing over, and if anything those men are complaining something of those Sranc is lingering back, rather. I’m wary of considering the opposite because there are too many implications attached and what I’ve read up to this point isn’t very coherent with the idea going that way.

There is a head on a pole behind you.

While this is probably quite “troubling” for most fist-time Bakker readers, for me it makes instead an anchor. Or maybe it feels like one and I’m being fooled. But the first time I read this passage, for me it was a fixed point. Because I immediately linked it to this blog post.

It is the same concept that is familiar: the darkness that comes before. The head on a pole is yet another “fashioning” of the same concept. So the way I interpret its meaning is: you believe the movement of your thoughts are your own, but there’s something that comes before, here behind, that precedes your thoughts, shapes them and your actions. The key points are that you don’t control what you think you control, and more importantly, you have no perception of it. Same as the practical example in that blog, the “feature” of the head on the pole is to be perpetually just behind you. You cannot turn to see it. You have no direct perception of it.

All of this is reinforced at various points. This inner scene is surrounded by different pieces of the scene between Kellhus and Proyas. Right below the passage Kellhus is described as IMMOVABLE “in the eyes of his Exalt-General.” But he’s also controlling everything. He’s not so much in front of Proyas, but behind him, controlling and shaping each of his thoughts. “Kellhus had ruled Proyas’s heart, became the author of his every belief.”

“Kellhus could have reached out and behind him, manipulated the dark places of his soul.

This much is quite clear, about the philosophical underpinnings of this “metaphor,” but not quite enough for me to see clearly through it… The following section is a huge problem:

He is here … with you … not so much inside me as speaking with your voice.

He is”, should exclude this being the God of Gods, this scene is too authoritative to have slips like that. Who’s there? We don’t know. It’s Shakespearean. Who’s there? I am.

“With you.” Yes, it’s the same thing. He’s one with you. You think there’s one where there’s two. Master and manipulated. Kellhus and Proyas, in the example scene. One can be used to decode the other, even if the link may be less direct than this. This scene is not about Proyas, it’s about Kellhus in the Outside.

How does Kellhus reach the Outside? At this point of the book I have no idea. If it’s some kind of trance or meditation, like the Thousandfold Thought, then his consciousness wanders. Also meaning he’s in two places at once. So it started to open possibilities while I read. This, also, could be an anchor for Kellhus. He could either be the head, with the head on the pole behind him. Or he could be the head on the pole. Or, more likely, SEE through the head on the pole, like his anchor point in the Outside. But what to make of all this? I don’t know. It doesn’t coalesces into something usable, just suggestions.

“Not so much inside me as speaking with your voice.” This for me trips all over everything and why it is so confusing. We established there’s a “he.” We then established there’s a “you,” and he’s here with you. But then there’s a third. “Me.” This me, speaks with YOUR voice, and HE’S HERE.

Up to this point we were always playing with a double. Consciousness and preceding darkness. Master and slave. But it splits in three ways and I don’t know what to make of it, beside the fact that all of these three still coincide with the same point. There’s a he who speaks with your voice inside me. But if this voice is inside me, then how can it be other than MY voice? Again, the darkness that precedes. Who’s speaking here in the first place? Kellhus? It sounds incongruous.

But what if instead this is Kellhus talking to himself? It’s still incongruous for the way Kellhus has been shown before, but “you” could simply be self-reference. Your internal monologue that speaks to you as a double. “You’re really an idiot”, saying your internal voice, referring to yourself. Soooo… He’s here with me. Not so much inside me, but speaking with my voice.

I am being controlled. This is my voice, that I hear, but I’m not the one speaking.

We pondered you, says the most crocodilian of the Sons.

“But I have never been here.”

This “surprise” sounds like Kellhus. The further reply, “You said this very thing” is to me so clear that it’s probably misleading and false (more on this, at the very end). I just can’t see alternatives, and alternatives are what’s probably needed to decode the whole thing…

“And what was your reply?” (Kellhus? asks.)

The living shall not haunt the dead.

And we’re back to the line that caps it all, but that for me means the LEAST. What we know is that this is spoken by one of the “Sons,” likely some kind of lesser gods in this Outside, or something pretending.

What does it mean? You should not be here. Only dead souls crowd the outside, to be eaten by the gods. This is HELL, after all. You should not be here. You are still alive … and there’s a head on a pole behind you. But do the gods know about the head on the pole? This is more likely Kellhus private knowledge. The head is an anchor point to the outside, to peer through? We don’t know.

Other parts here and there are easier to parse, or should be. Again, not because I’m smart, but because I’ve been onboard for a while, and read Bakker explain stuff through his blog. I often can see parallels between the story and the actual philosophy it comes from. So here we go:

“And he sees that these things are meat, here. Love is meat. Hope is meat. Courage. Outrage. Anguish. All these things are meat – seared over fire, sucked clean of grease.”

I immediately recognized this coming from a section of the blog, that I cannot find now. It was too many years ago. I don’t even remember if it was someone else in the comments. But it refers to a video. The concept is still at the foundation of eliminativism a science of human consciousness. There is no magic, it’s all basic science. Therefore the nature of emotions is still inscribed within the “meat.” Using the abstraction that we are just meat. Our brain is meat. Emotions have to be encoded within that same meat, if we accept there isn’t something “more.” The hard problem of consciousness. There are also different versions and I’m not sure the one that we used at the time, but the concept is the same. Even a cursory search through the blog offers some explicit quotes:

They need to understand that thoughts are made of meat. Cognition and communication are biological processes, open to empirical investigation and high dimensional explanations.

But how literally things are encoded here?

You can eat the brain of a wise man, without getting the wiser. Digestion would rather destroy that information, if we want to be literal. Already this is problematic, because this scene is in the Outside. If these are souls, how can they be meat? Maybe the parallel Bakker made isn’t direct at all and I’ve been mislead by prior knowledge, rather than helped?

So let’s stick to what’s written… Which doesn’t help. Because he’s offered that meat, whoever “he” is. The head on the pole cannot be moved (we’ve seen why), but here it appears to be used as a motive for what comes after. “He seizes the lake.” This seems quite an intentional stance, rather than a passive observer. Which is weird. The Sons, who are speaking and doing here, are also seized within the whole. “He rips them around the pole.” No idea what to make of this specifically. It may be as well bound to conceptual things Bakker uses for his ideas of time and place, but I never delved deep into that, and it’s complex stuff that would require time. “He transforms here into here,” and everything on that scene… But doesn’t seem to do anything with it. That phrase ends. He seems to wrap the whole place, but then what?

“You refuse to drip fear like honey – because you have no fear.”

Here the causal chain seems linked to the head on the pole. He has no fear of damnation… Because there is a head on the pole behind him. But let’s stick to the mention of fear, and go back.

Fear is just meat. It is encoded in the meat same as every other emotion or feeling. Fear is just meat… Because there is a head on a pole? More or less. Again, how literally things are encoded? Kellhus cannot be eaten. Because he’s not there. The living should not, can not, haunt the dead. He’s tricking them believing him being there, but he’s not.

But the moment you see things for what they are, the moment you shift the perspective back to the head on the pole, then you exit that personal consciousness. You understand the movement of a person’s soul. You know what is being moved, you know how. Kellhus knows how. He is inhuman in that way, the same as (well, not really) Non-men described later as “False-men”: “This is what made them False, inhuman … The way they made beasts of Men.” The same as Kellhus makes children of all Men. Toys. The bestial being used as “lesser than,” same as the Emwama in that scene.

As Dunyain, Kellhus has mastered fear. Not as simple control of one own’s emotions, but because fear is “explained away.” Once you have an understanding of reality, fear goes away, same as fear becomes just more “meat.” Once you have a fundamental description of reality, once you’re one with the world, you become fearless. Not so much as an act of will, but as an act of… physics. Fear is determined by what comes before. The nature of fear is for being incomplete and abrupt. To have no bridge between before and after. The moment you switch back to the perspective of the head on the pole, fear becomes at best a tool, not an emotion. By eating that meat you also eat fear, but in the sense that fear becomes illusory, same as consciousness is illusory. The appearance of something else.

Again, how literally things are encoded? Kellhus is not there (so he has nothing to fear, the Sons can’t get him), but he’s also fearless as a state of mind. But so is Theliopa:

“The bottomless indifference of her gaze was the only thing that terrified.”

“She gazed at him with piscine relentlessness, her pale blue eyes dead, void of passion. And for the first time he felt it … the menace of her inhuman intellect.”

“She looked like a thing graven, the goddess of some lesser race.”

I like how Bakker writes, because describing those “piscine eyes” he never flatters. The horror always lies in the truth of the mundane. And Bakker is a genius because Kelmomas sees her cunning, IN HER SKIRT (it’s not a pun, it’s like that).

But these considerations are beside the point. Is Theliopa also fearless? Is she… without a soul? That’s what I meant with “how things are encoded.” Because when it come to metaphysics we don’t know all that much, and it may be that achieving a certain impersonal otherness, the way of the Dunyain, may also translate with them being literal meat, without a soul. But there’s nothing indicating anything like this, up to this point, so this is another diversion trying to interpret this passage, leading nowhere.

We pondered you.

“But I’ve never been here.”

What if he had? This was my first idea. On the whole scene and the identity of the head on the pole.

This was what his father’s Thousandfold Thought had made.”

“A pattern conquering patterns, reproducing on the scales of both insects and heavens; heartbeats and ages. All bound upon him.”

My guess was that the head on the pole is Moengus. But it may as well be a wrong guess. I’m still biased by the fact I don’t feel the end of the third book complete. I still rage at what I can’t come to terms there. And Bakker STILL teases me, right in this chapter. Moengus couldn’t explain why Kellhus had haloed hands. Here, Kellhus still has no idea why, either.

“He raised a hand into the dim air, gazed upon the nimbus of gold shining about them.”

“Such a remarkable thing.”

“So hard to explain.”

This is Kellhus. “Most failed to even notice his evasion.” I read this almost as if this is Bakker, also evading poignant questions, leaving just “odour of profundity.” Make believe. “They assumed they were being misdirected for some divine reason, in accordance to some greater design.”

This here is a dressing down, pretending to have greater answers where there’s none.

But it’s also a missing point. What’s the matter of the haloed hands? Miracle. Moengus was fooled, or maybe pretended to be, in order to enact. Kellhus doesn’t know. He’s being moved by a head on a pole behind him. By his father’s Thousandfold Thought.

He goes to the outside, but he only moved through the path his father already traveled before. Kellhus has never been there, but Moengus had.

“He was as much a creature of the Thought as it was a creature of him. For it whispered as it danced, threading the stacked labyrinths of contingency, filing through the gates of his daylight apprehension, becoming him.”

This is what I currently have. Which is a collection of SOME of the thoughts I had, just the more recent. I either write them down or lose them. As it happens, these moments stay clearer than what they become later on. So better hold on them while they are here…

(for example, I left out considerations about the first quote in the chapter about the game of Abenjukala, map and territory. It still is an example of occlusion. This was actually something I planned to start from, writing this whole thing, and now I can only stare dully at the page, wondering what I meant to write and then forgot… Sigh.)

Wind falls through the lazy treetops, shushing the bestiary that is the world.

“TELL ME … HAS THE WORLD ENDED?”

Done, late, with the fifth book. Only the last one is left, 800 pages long, split in two halves. I only have some scattered thoughts here, nothing truly coherent.

Closing the book, picking up the next. Reading the summary at the beginning is always an important step. It helps consolidating the experience, double up. From reading these summaries I immediately get the staggering scale of it all. Only Tolkien before Bakker was able to give the fictional construction such a scale and depth, and the sense of vertigo when you look down deep. A journey in the sense of an ascension. But whereas Tolkien was just doing his thing, turned inward, Bakker is conscious about it. Not just a well executed backdrop painted in vivid detail, what Bakker does is transfiguring it. Nail it to the canvas. Like Kellhus, Bakker grasped Moenghus-Tolkien’s Thousandfold Thought, and then went beyond. Bakker dared flying close to the sun, and did not get burnt.

After reading half of the summary I flipped casually through the first few pages, since I was done reading for that day, but something caught my attention as I saw a scene between Proyas and Kellhus. They are discussing metaphysics! And so I found myself reading this section, some twenty pages into the book without even reading from the beginning. A tolerable spoiler, I figured. I didn’t want to go too far so I only read a couple of pages. Proyas is being consumed by Kellhus and the interesting part is what he wants from him. But they were discussing the nature of the god. Kellhus depicts an idea of the god that isn’t again far from Kabbalah. A distinction whose nature is opposition. Something other than a man. In Kabbalah it is all about the ambiguity: men are opposite to god because god’s nature is giving, and men’s nature is receiving. And that’s also the nature of pain. But in closing that system the destination is being whole, apparently opposite to Kellhus’ idea here, that is more an alien, otherworldly concept of an uncaring god.

That’s the nail Bakker hammered into Tolkien’s dead skull. This interplay of god and no-god, men and non-men. Non-men being the elves, or even, going deeper, Istari-Ishroi. Gandalf is transfigured into Cleric, Nil’Giccas. But Nil’Giccas is also one of the nonmen, angel-like creatures.

“What did you see?” Nin’sariccas asked with what seemed genuine curiosity. “What did you find?”

“God… broken into a million warring splinters.”

A grim nod. “We worship the spaces between the Gods.”

“Which is why you are damned.”

Another nod, this one strangely brittle. “As False Men.”

The Aspect-Emperor nodded in stoic regret. “As False Men.”

Men and false men, gods and false gods. But what “false” even means in this context. And what even is truth?

“Is it true you have walked the Outside and returned?”

“Yes.”

“And what did you find?”

The idea of a god being fragmented into countless pieces is from the third book, where Kellhus tried to unify everything into one. The true god. This concept is reinforced by the voice of the dragon at the end of the book:

“IS NOT TRUTH INFINITE?”

But it’s Nil-giccas reaction that is quite funny, considering the dramatic scene, and throws it all back to Bilbo, out of a fairy tale:

“He plays you,” the Nonman said, his face white and serene. “There is no separating him from his hoard. He is too wicked, and he has slumbered here too long…”

The Nonman is serene because he now remembers, this scene comes from The Hobbit. It comes from the past, and now he knows how it will play out. There’s nothing to fear here, the future is known.

“The God is Infinite,” Kellhus said, pausing before the crucial substitution. “Is It not?”

If men are fragments, wedges of reality, then the truth is infinite in practical terms, just as the dragon says.

A hissing pause. “GRASPING,” the dead beast said, shadowy and mountainous. “MEN ARE FOREVER GRASPING.”

“I search for a map,” the old Wizard said.

Achamian comes to bargain, to obtain his trinket from the dragon’s hoard.

“A bargain then!” he cried in sudden inspiration. “I would strike a bargain with you!”

“WHAT COULD YOU HAVE THAT I MIGHT DESIRE, MORTAL?”

“Truth… Truth is all I have.”

Is not truth infinite? Not quite in general terms… The pertinent trait of truth is being complete. One piece of truth, in itself, is true but incomplete. As long it doesn’t overlap in misrepresentation, as long it is adjacent. As long it’s not contradiction. A piece of the world, a piece of reality. A piece of truth is all Achamian has. But men are forever grasping. Achamian wants more pieces, he wants the whole truth. Or the truth made (w)hole.

Think, Proyas. Men will so they can become one with the Future. Men want so they can become one with the World. Men love so they can become one with the Other…” A fractional pause. “Men are forever famished, Proyas, famished for what they are not…

And isn’t the Thousandfold Thought an act of a man, forever grasping to make the future, Muad’dib. Hasn’t Kellhus stepped into the Outside to become whole with the god, and return? Kellhus’ journey, ever drifting closer to truth, growing even more inhuman.

But despite all the goading, I still don’t know where this all leads. I don’t even know the proper position of the inner pieces. When reading the scene between Kellhus and the Nonmen, quoted here above, I thought it was ironic that worshiping “the space between the gods” seems equivalent to worshiping a no-god. The actual distinction between what is and isn’t a god. Spaces of not-god. I’m still completely lost in the easy parts. Men are made of populations that migrated from the east, that thrived as the Nonmen dwindled for their own causes. What is false and true about this? Why would the Nonmen self describe as false men? Nonmen were distinct from men merely because they were native of the region. Would Native Americans define themselves as “false men”? Why?

I would understand it as a negation, worshiping the spaces between the gods would be like worshiping freedom from the gods, like the last epigraph says:

We only have as much freedom as we have slack in our chains. Only those who dare nothing are truly free.
—SUÖRTAGAL, EPIMEDITATIONS

But again this would put Nonmen very close to the Inchoroi:

a race who had come to seal the World against the Heavens and so save the obscenities they called their souls.

Wouldn’t their goals be one?

It’s curious that the further the series proceeds, the more it drifts closer to Malazan in its deeper meaning. The “fantasy” of fetching the world toward reality. The end of magic. “Deliver us from evil”. Which is again fully going back to Tolkien and the story of a world gone. The few remaining elves that sail westward, as the closure of an age, and leaving a new world. Even if it is quite probable that Bakker won’t be satisfied by a forlorn, nostalgic goodbye.

What about the rest of the book? The first part is very much the continuation of The Judging Eye. The quality of writing stays excellent, the sharpness of vision is unrelenting. That’s evidently what Bakker sets off to do, and delivered. He wanted to blend themes from the first trilogy directly into the characters, and find meaning through both introspection and action. On the other hand the philosophy stays back once again. This story demanded time, Bakker delivered it masterfully. It’s still not my own main focus as a reader. It’s still, for the most part, a distraction. Then chapter 7 & 8, right in the center of the book, produce a major shift. Once again Bakker soars above and seizes similar heights of the first trilogy. It feels like it’s a pivotal moment in the book, that everything is about to change… But it doesn’t happen. The story eases back in its previous shape, and from that point until the end it feels like an aftermath. While this may sound as a disappointment from me, it’s very much deliberate. Bakker wanted to tell this story, in this precise way. Taking its time, without rushing, without distractions.

The Slog of Slogs started, more or less, as an interpretation of a standard fantasy quest. Looking for a magical trinket (or a map). As I wrote back then, this is a macguffin because as readers we already know those answers, and we know there’s no revelation there. Through all this book Bakker delivers characters to that end of the story, and fully embraces the intent of interpreting something that came before.

Cleric and the old Wizard, meanwhile, dare enter the ruined maw of the Coffers, where they find Wutteät, the famed Father of Dragons, coiled about a great heap of Far Antique treasure.

Once again, it’s all a game. Bakker uses this part of the story like a parable. He overlaps the classical Toliken with his own reinterpretation. He sounds what came before like a musical instrument. But that’s also where the difference is, because Bakker writes in a way that doesn’t afford that type of nostalgic citation or inspiration. Everything Bakker touches ends up transfigured and transcended, exactly as it happened with the first trilogy and inspiration from holy crusades. When this type of superimposition happens, it’s because Bakker wants to look beyond. And if you are on board, he delivers and does not falter.

That’s the shape of the story, and I ended up accepting it. Achamian and Mimara finally reached Ishual and found it in ruins. We of course didn’t see anything there from the twenty years gap, so who knows what happened. The rest of the journey hasn’t been especially enlightening. Everyone else died, all those other threads started and ended. They retrieved some magical trinkets from the dragon hoard, draped them over their shoulders. But they are described as simple toys. Again, it was all a game.

On the side of Momemn things were somewhat more dramatic, but I don’t think it worked for me the way it was intended. The plot twist at the end was way too predictable, due to a giant Chekhov gun that Bakker left unfired. It was WAY too conspicuous, making its absence very loud. On one hand, Bakker had to write it deliberately so that this “weapon” was authoritative. You have to make the reader believe its power, why it cannot fail. Make it a real threat that can kill a Dûnyain. But it’s a too simple trick to make it disappear from the page just after it’s been primed, and then distract the reader through the plot, hoping that the intervening chaos is just enough to hide effectively that weapon until the moment of its return. I was just there turning pages and wondering when it would come back on the scene. And since it only comes at the very end, it certainly wasn’t a surprise. But the interesting part is the consequences of that event, and that’s for the following book to tell.

I am somewhat confused, because it seems like Kellhus must have glimpsed some of those events. He seems surprised when we get a short scene from his point of view, the story is built in a way (and then reinforced by Maithanet) that seems to make evident that Kellhus already anticipated the important events. Yet it seems weird that this was the result of his Thousandfold Thought, that this was the shortest path. Somewhat too convoluted and quite unoptimized… Wasn’t there a better way? It’s more or less the same Esmenet wonders.

Reading the summary in the following book cements the idea of how much the events end up being shaped by Kelmomas, but in the book we get his point of view, and he’s completely clueless, far from the mastermind he appears to be. In the end he’s only successful because Maithanet and Inrilatas trip on each other. Kelmomas is a survivor of chance, more than a director. Again, how much of this did Kellhus glimpse? How could he see the chaos of Kelmomas as an useful threat?

The scene in chapter 8 between Maithanet and Inrilatas becomes the center of the whole book. I’ve read it a few times, and can go back and read it more. There’s so much that is implied and slips away. Both Maithanet and Inrilatas speak following their own inner threads, rather then to each other. They move in a coordinated, parallel way, but it’s not quite a dialogue. On the side, Kelmomas is only able to watch in shock.

And again, Bakker teases me.

Inrilatas seized the opportunity. “You think Mother has blunted Father’s pursuit of the Shortest Path time and again, that he walks in arcs to appease her heart, when he should cleave to the ruthless lines of the Thousandfold Thought.”

“Who has told you these things?” his uncle demanded.

Inrilatas ignored the distraction. “You think Father risks the very world for his Empress’s sake — for the absurdity of love!”

“Was it her? Did she tell you about the Thousandfold Thought?”

The two speak in parallel, they follow their own trajectory. Maithanet is concerned by something, that is never quite explained. Why is he so worried by the mention of the Thousandfold Thought? Shouldn’t it all be common knowledge at this point? It’s basically a different label for the plan that everyone believes Kellhus has. Belief in him, belief in the plan.

That’s even a main theme of the book, working quite well in the way it is explored through the book: is tyranny necessary?

If men are too stupid, and there’s an existential threat, is maybe tyranny the only possible solution? It’s an actual, tangible question that within the context of the book and its events is completely cleaned of rhetoric. It’s not an excuse to seize power, it’s the same conclusion Sorweel arrives to. From Chapter 7, onward, the function is to show how real is that threat. The neverending flood of Sranc, and the despair it leaves. What’s the answer to this? It’s the same dilemma Achamain has. In the end the truth of it vanishes in the presence of the practical. Yes, Kellhus is a fraud, but who cares? Hasn’t he used his power precisely to save the humanity that is left? Was there a better way? Is truth the price of complete annihilation?

“What if he were simply a man pretending to be more—a prophet, or even as you say, a god—simply to manipulate you and countless others?”

“But why would he do such a thing?” the girl cried, seeming at once thrilled, confused, and appalled.

“To save your life.”

Of course with these types of stories the problem is always in the labyrinth, the Thousandfold Thought: what about the other options? You have to trust Kellhus, and Bakker, saying that there was no other, better way.

That scene between Maithanet and Inrilatas roughly coincided with the moment everyone on the internet started talking about the second Dune movie. I haven’t seen the first, and have zero interest watching either of them. But I did start reading Dune Messiah in parallel, and it become an effective tool to interpret what I was reading here. I really liked Dune Messiah, but it is a book of two sides. The plot itself is a complete failure. Everything ends up being resolved through artificial intervention, it’s simply poorly thought. But Herbert made a great job developing the themes and deeper meanings. He got the metaphysics right, compared to similar attempts that instead failed spectacularly, as I said before, from Alan Moore with Watchmen, to Arrival, Dark, Tenet. They all embrace contradiction blissfully, thinking themselves smart. Herbert instead sidesteps the whole problem. He simply embeds the uncertainty within the prophetic visions of the future, merely because he adds the possibility of hidden actors. There is more than one prophet, therefore no prophecy is ever complete. Therefore uncertainty can’t be squeezed away. But it’s all wonderful because Paul knows from the very first pages there’s a conspiracy against him, and he knows the conspirators are right in front of him. And the conspirators know he knows.

The more I peeled those layers in Dune Messiah, the more I recognized echoes within this book. Hayt is Sorweel. A known weapon that is kept close (even if then sent away, in the context of this book). The path of Paul is very similar to the path of Kellhus. Both end up being quite lonely at the end, and both become inhuman. The moment Paul vanishes in the desert, it seems like the writing takes a somewhat suggestive, rhetorical bent. He goes out to die, but it looks more like he gets transformed, becoming whole with the desert and the planet. The scene wants to be evocative, but is it really just for a show, to make the ending poetic? The moment he grasps his own Thousandfold Thought he actively merges with the future, and then the past. Maintaining a physical form seems almost superfluous at that point. He “grasped” far beyond himself, in a way where time, past and future, have been merged together. In a way that his present happens simultaneously with his past, his perception overlapping and merging. What function has a body left when you are everywhere, anytime, at once? It’s one of the most poetic and yet strictly logical portrays of death I’ve read. Nothing can ever rob you of the moment. A life is always eternal (well, given the current knowledge we have of realty).

Kellhus aspires to the same, and on that level he has no opponents that meddle against his will. At this point I don’t know, maybe the cult of Yatwer has been crafted to conform the same shape conceived by the Bene Tleilax (I absolutely despise them). The White-Luck Warrior being the hidden knife. And it was already been established that the gods are intervening, but they cannot perceive the No-God. So Bakker is adding actors on the scene just like Herbert did. We’ll see where all this leads.

Throughout this uneven commentary I missed quite a few things I wanted to add. A number of characters, both minor and major find their end precisely when their function ceases. It seemed a bit too neat and convenient. Characterization is always a guiding star, shining through all the book. Again, this is what Bakker wanted to do. It is so well executed and meaningful that you find it in the small things, like Sorweel who has to wait being alone to be able to even think his conspiracy. Not because Serwa would read his face, it is assumed that whatever magical power (supposedly) shielded him from Kellhus would work the same for her, but because he cannot have two contradicting halves, one turned inward and one turned outward. And that’s also why he feels betrayed at the very end. He’s still earnest within himself.

The depiction of the idiosyncratic (as an euphemism) royal family is masterful. They don’t occupy much space but they feel so solid and real to me, so distinct and intriguing. I despise Kelmomas with a passion but I’ve truly loved Inrilatas (sadly…). Theliopa comes right behind. She’s not much of a developed character, but deeply endearing to me. And then Kayutas ad Serwa, distancing Moenghus in my own preference merely because Moenghus isn’t quite as distinct or meaningful.

Anyhow, it’s quite telling that whereas the Dûnyain have bred “for intellect”, in reality we breed our leaders for stupidity. The power is their greed, their greed is their end. There’s no further level. One can only wonder what could have happened if there was someone in control, rather than everyone slave to the same machine. We are quite literally victims of an evolutionary dead end without any escape. For all the grimdark, there’s more hope in Bakker’s Eärwa than there ever was on planet Earth (for human beings, that is).

For me reading Bakker has become something more. That grimdark is sustenance, the only way of looking beyond that pointless pain that is the world, the real world. It has nothing to do with escapism, or even entertainment. It’s all about understanding the world and our silly place in it.

A few remaining, quick considerations:

An Ark “toppled”. I can only ask: who comes on the scene by crashing on the stage? Seems quite a clumsy entrance. This still hasn’t been explained. What were the Inchoroi doing? The dragon at the end adds a few things, but I still can’t make anything out of it: “WATCHING MY MAKERS DESCEND AS LOCUSTS UPON WORLD AFTER WORLD, REDUCING EACH TO ONE HUNDRED AND FORTY-FOUR THOUSAND — AND WAILING TO FIND THEMSELVES STILL DAMNED!” 144.000 of what? Worlds? Why 144? “THE LAND OF OUR REDEMPTION!” …Why? Why this land here? “THE PROMISED WORLD!” By who?

The book, as usual, starts with a citation from a real book, Hegel in this case:

The heavens, the sun, the whole of nature is a corpse. Nature is given over to the spiritual, and indeed to spiritual subjectivity; thus the course of nature is everywhere broken in upon by miracles.

—Hegel, Lectures on the History of Philosophy III

“Nature is given”, by who? This appears to reinforce the religious angle in the book: magical intervention is subjectivity. Not the objective description of the world (science). But the subjective moral compass, the judging eye. So, the seed that introduces subjectivity creates the premise of miraculous intervention. Something other than an objective corpse.

I have no idea where this all leads.

A few pages later, still in the summary, there’s a line referring to Kellhus going beyond the Thousandfold Thought: “And go mad.” Next to it I scribbled a note: (miracle?)

“This is a journey without return.”
“She sneered and laughed. “So is every life.”

This is a weird book.
And I absolutely hate writing “reviews.”
I’d love to start reading the following book without saying a thing, but I also feel this commitment to write what I think… so here we are.
(there will be spoilers)

Before I begin here I went to retrieve that old, placeholder cover that was never actually used, and read a couple of reviews that I also must have read at the time they came out, skipping the plot details to avoid spoiler (or pretend to forget). The suspicion I had while reading the book, and maybe that I remembered from back then, was confirmed:

Another error I think I made in The Prince of Nothing as a whole is that I think I focused too much on interior action – I spent too much time knocking around in my characters’ heads. This is one thing that I tried to rectify in The Judging Eye: there’s still plenty of internal action, but I like to think I’ve done a better job balancing it with external action.

Bakker told me that the Prince of Nothing series was always meant to be the “story behind the story.” Hence, he wanted to make sure that The Aspect-Emperor would work for the fans, but also for those who found the literary aspects of the first trilogy (emphasis on particularity and interiority) too much, as well as for newbies.

But here I’m writing what I think, what I was thinking while reading, and I’m not going to make these other aspects intrude now.

This book is essentially a long prologue. I also think it’s really well written, more so than the preceding trilogy. I don’t mean as a quantification, since those preceding three books were exceptional. But the necessities of that story made the pages somewhat uneven, cumbersome for having to carry so much, and Bakker had some quirky writing habits (death came swirling down) that always had a motivation behind them, but also could push a reader either way. This new beginning feels as if Bakker reorganized and decided to write it on his own terms. As if he’s more in control of the story, rather than serving it. More a narrator than a possessed mouthpiece.

And yet the book suffers for it, in a way. The mad desperate rush, or the slow march toward Shimeh, one and the same, had a specific quality. Despite there are aspects of that story that are mirrored here, it almost feels like a fairy tale. Despite the horror, the dread made real, it seems to completely lack an edge. In this regard, the book reads so much more like a well written, but quite traditional fantasy book. And yet it’s very much “Bakker”, every single line. But also so very different.

The idea you could start reading from this book sounds to me simply ABSURD. It makes no sense. There is so much to this story that it would be simply ridiculous to decide to start from a different point. But as I was reading it, I had this feeling of reading an extended prologue. It’s a 400 pages book, the length of the last one in the previous trilogy. The more I moved through it, the more I realized that the prologue wouldn’t end, and the book wouldn’t begin. And as I was reading through the final, extended section, it simply dawned on me a weird idea: this wasn’t written as a prologue to the following volumes… This is a prologue to the first trilogy.

It doesn’t make ANY sense, and yet it does. Without reading the summaries of the story so far, that in this case have been moved to the back of the book, it seems as everything is set up to refer to that story, but without quite spoiling it, without making it known and plain. The first page, a letter to Kellhus, is enough to set the stage, but from a guarded point of view. That story already blended into legend, and built a distance. The original trilogy played on its two different levels, the ancient times of the First Apocalypse, with the brief direct glimpses through Mandate dreams, and then the present times. With Achamian realizing that things were in motion once again, that legends once again become real, become present. Twenty or so years pass, the world is largely transformed, and so are the characters. There is less of an impending doom, even if the impending doom is obviously closer. There is a sense of relative security and stability. This book becomes, at the same time, the future but also the past. Because that past, blending to legend, becomes something to rediscover and reinterpret. And for all these reflections, it seems all building momentum to lead there. There’s emphasis, a sought knowledge expressed from characters that are new, like Mimara and Sorweel, who understand that their circumstances are the result of what came before. Their stories and movements in the book are introductions to the past. They build an offset of wonder, they build an anticipation for things ahead, that are instead behind.

And it’s all… gone.

This is the apparent contradiction: that the book is so well written, to the point of pure spectacle. Of a writer, much like David Foster Wallace, who seems to say “hey mom, I’m driving this bike with no hands!” Effortless spectacle. And yet, the mission, the mad rush forward, the desperate need that fueled the previous trilogy and made it TRUE, is completely gone. Gone in the sense that it is tucked away. Locked out.

The book begins and sets some premises. They are even quite intriguing, like the false memories about Seswatha. But all it does is simply confirm previous hypothesis. To the point it really makes logical sense only in the perspective of leading toward the previous trilogy. Achamian’s whole journey here, toward an explicit excuse: the library of Sauglish. And to do what there? Figure out the place where Kellhus is coming from, Ishual. Because Achamian believes Kellhus is no god, but just a man who is manipulating everyone around him, for his own ends rather than what he claims. He is a false god, and Achamian’s mission is proving it. First and foremost to himself.

But while this is true for that limited point of view, it’s not true for the reader, to a comical level. You simply need to take the very first book, open it to the map at the end. There it is: Ishual. The map that Achamian still hasn’t reached, has always been there. Everything Achamian seeks to understand about Kellhus, we already know in quite good detail. We’ve even seen authoritative flashbacks of his training. But of course, “we”, the readers of what came before. Not the Judging Eye readers, with a wonder for legendary times. With desire for revelation. To know more, to prove more.

We are already there, waiting for Achamian to catch up. For this prologue to end, and the real story to start.

Since The Thousandfold Thought we’ve known that the boundary between the world and the otherworld, the world and hell, is being eroded. It is reaffirmed at the beginning of The Judging Eye. The end of the book simply reinforces it. Shows it. The book is a prologue because it starts and ends the same. We are none the wiser, because the first trilogy has delivered all these answers.

Whereas all the other “mysteries” still waiting for an answer, and that are still seeded here, like what is Kellhus TRUE purpose, what does it mean to seal the world from the outside. Or the very big deal: why Achamian believes Kellhus a fraud, when we’re getting more and more proofs that things are quite weird (the haloes of his hands, in previous books, that Moenghus also couldn’t explain, or Mimara otherworldly powers here, or all about Yatwer… all being intrusions into the world order)? None of these get explained, or even advanced. Because of course there’s no answer in the first trilogy about them. And The Judging Eye is its prologue.

Once again, all I’m writing is about what isn’t there, rather than what it is there. I wrote some comments on goodreads while I was reading through the book. The second chapter with the introduction to Achamian and Mimara is a masterpiece. But the prose and characterization maintain a superb quality that soars above the preceding books. I still have no idea why Mimara is written in present tense, while everyone else is done through a typical past tense. It makes Mimara feel like a timetraveler that got slightly dislodged from the fabric of reality. She’s more immediate, she’s the same as what happens to Achamian when he visits the past through his dreams. He feels there, even if he’s not quite there. As a meta-narrative device it would work well. Sorweel and Mimara are receptacles for new readers. They demand immersion and identification (despite a couple of plot points about Mimara will throw any reader as further away as possible, I guess Bakker can’t abstain from making fun of any form of positive feedback). Yet Sorwell doesn’t share that literary trick that affects Mimara…

I won’t say much about the description of PURE EVIL that is the kid, Kelmomas. These are all the things that Bakker does superbly well, and it feels pointless to comment because they are plainly there, on the page. But The Judging Eye is all about the characters and how they are written. It’s all about a display of mastery.

The twenty year gap is tricky to deliver. It the same thing that not only was tricky for GRRM, but that lead to the complete SHIPWRECK of that series. If anything, this book clearly proves who’s the better writer, if there was still any doubt (and all the more sad, since Bakker hasn’t continued writing). But who cares about pointless comparisons. The point is that most of what is great here is due to everything being so perfectly nailed. All the sons and daughters of Kellhus/Esmenet/Serwe, they are all incredible characters. Different from each other, yet leaping from the page and from the mass of everyone else. Some appear very briefly, and still make so much an impact as to forget everything about the story. They become story themselves. They are so deeply intriuguing, deeply characterized in their quirky behaviors. They have all the otherworldly charm that Kellhus has actually lost, becoming simply inhuman in an unrelatable way. Kelmomas is just a pure representation of pure evil egoism, but in the end he’s just a kid blown large: the disconnect that is plainly stated at the beginning of the prologue: “When a man posseses the innocence of a child, we call him fool. When a child possesses the cunning of a man, we call him an abomination.” But how not be charmed by neurotic Theliopa, or even Kayutas and Moenghus. Or the folly of Inrilatas, what has he seen? He has found revelation without leaving his room.

All of this, the context of the world after a twenty year gap, the superb characterization, the quality of the prose, they all make this book a masterpiece. And yet it is a masterpiece of a prologue… to the first trilogy.

Where has the bone and marrow of the story gone?

The implications that move everything, that drove those preceding books. They are locked away. It’s not even missing in the sense of a lack, it’s simply not there.

The only aspect that I’m doubtful about is the whole cult of Yatwer side-plot. From Psatma Nannaferi, to where it intersects with Sorweel and then the literal Judging Eye of Mimara. It feels like an intrusion in the story that doesn’t quite fit. It hinges on those parts of the metaphysics that still don’t make a lot of sense. They are intrusion from the outside, but for that reason they clash with the “science” of Kellhus. They are obviously deliberate elements of the story, but still fail to win me over. And all this within the minimal page count they occupy here.

I have no idea what The White-Luck Warrior will be. Will it be a sequel to this prologue? A sequel to the original trilogy? Something else entirely? I still have the feeling that Bakker is moving away from the original story, rather than toward it. I suppose some of this is the result of a sort of “rebound” effect. A reaction to the reaction. Bakker isn’t so much writing his story, as he was doing up to this point, but reacting to the moment that story was delivered and made public. But we’re dealing with “art” here, and it means that feedback doesn’t necessarily have a positive effect. Bakker was seeking approval, this book seems to read like a statement that says (and proves): I deserve it.

For all its exceptional execution, it doesn’t grasp what is there behind the curtain. And it doesn’t match what the preceding trilogy is. This book is mostly spectacle.

(How to write a negative review that is just a list of praises, I guess. But that’s how I feel, and how I felt reading this book.)

Further notes:
there are a number of aspects I intended to elaborate on, but I don’t feel like wrestling with what I already wrote to fit everything in. So I’ll only mention that the whole ordeal in those last 100 pages, obvious reference to Minas Tirith, despite all the dread and incredible execution, still felt a somewhat comforting place. We know Mimara can’t die there, we know Achamian can’t die. We know the captain and probably even Cleric are unlikely to die like that. Despite only an handful come out alive, Bakker knows too and makes fun of: “Of those the Bitten had called the Herd, all three survivors were Galeoth – Conger, Wonard, and Hameron – men Achamian had not known until the arduous climb up the Screw.” … A way of saying “redshirts.” Again, despite the so well described and evoked dread, we see only in small scale what we’ve already seen in the large: the nonman king speaks through unconscious Achamian and Pokwas, but it’s nothing compared to world-encompassing sranc choruses, in presence of the No-God. Despite all those scenes felt remote, merely implied dreams, and here they are close and immediate instead. But it’s still nothing new. It all lacks an edge. And no, this has nothing to do with Bakker unwilling to kill more important characters here, it wouldn’t have worked anyway. Nothing really happened. Achamian is looking for a map we readers already have, Mimara got a magical trinket, some redshirts were culled, nonmen are melancholic living or unliving ghosts. Nothing really happened here, it was a prologue.

Another thing I want to mention is “Sorweel’s shield.” There’s some Yatwerian magic that makes him somewhat immune, despite this matter isn’t quite clearly set, to Kellhus’ sight. But we know Kellhus’ sight isn’t magic, but just his ability to read the movement of muscle and skin. As I mentioned above, it’s science rather than magic. And Sorweel does indeed betray himself in very obvious ways. Yet he’s not seen.

Page 225: “We walk the Shortest Path, the labyrinth of the Thousandfold Thought.” I’m still somewhat annoyed how these two became one thing, when most of the 2nd book was built on its mystery of being two things. I still have no idea what Bakker (or Moenghus) was doing.

Page 314: “Nonmen can’t see paintings.” What?

Page 283: “Our God… the God, is broken into innumerable places.” Kabbalistic turn again, Adam Kadmon. Every time Bakker gives in to this type of metaphysics, he seems to channel Kabbalah.

One of the two reviews I’ve read said this:
most notably the biggest weakness in the series remains: that whilst it is imaginative, powerfully-written and at times intense, it is also a somewhat remote and cold work, easy to admire, hard to love.

It doesn’t sound quite right to me, but I started wondering if actually true or not. I can somewhat relate to it. But what’s then the difference between characters and books I do love, rather than admire? The answer, for me, is that it’s more about the perceived meaning of love than an actual distinction, that this series of books also mocked in a number of occasions…

(as I mentioned at the beginning, I hate writing reviews. I’d read a whole lot more if I didn’t force myself writing down my thoughts. The main reason why this book took longer to read than the previous three is because I decided to write about them (since book 1 and 2 were re-reads). That means I start postponing reading the book, so that I could postpone the moment I needed to write about it… And also started reading all sort of other books. I’m that type of stupid that makes his own cage.)